I went to Storm Lake where they had a holiday shopping time. Each store had cookies, candies and treats.
I did some pre-planning and made a stevia sweetened mocha here before I left. I made one for my friend as well so that there was no need to stop at a coffee shop.
I passed up all the treats. We went to the health food store they had raw nuts and dried fruit out. So I took 3-4 nuts and 4 raisin/cranberries. I wrote it on my calorie sheet-- 37 calories ( i love caloriecount.com-- easy calculations) I also bought a Zevia pop (that's what they say here not "coke.") Zevia is a stevia sweetened soda that this health food store has. They also had wine tasting. I got to try some Iowa wines. They were good. 1/4 cup- 25 calories- in the journal. No big deal.
I walked and talked with my new friend. I didn't feel bad that I wasn't joining in with the treats, as I once would have. It's just a fact- I can't eat those types of foods. (I was eating junky while we moved, I had headahces every day and a zit every minute and I gained 10 pounds) So I just had a nice time resolving to not feel that I was rejecting anyone, just being responsible for myself and not drawing attention to my not eating. Fun times. I got some cute clothes for Sierra at the consignment shop- Gap pants and a couple of really cute tunic shirts.
I had my 62 calorie snacks and deepened a new friendship. :) Then I had my "supper" that was in my crockpot when I got home- veggies, roast, acorn squash- yummy!
Hooray for you! It's so hard to get some people (including myself) to the point that you are already at--saying, "No, I don't need that, and in fact, I can't have it, and I'm ok with that--it's like an allergy." But it is like I told a friend of mine--it is a choice I had to make for myself so I can do the things I love and be healthy and happier. People are much more supportive that way, and they don't ask as many questions like you're crazy. Aunt Nancy tells people, "Sugar is my cocaine--you wouldn't tell a drug addict to 'just have a little' cocaine--you'd encourage them to stay as far away from it as possible." That's the mentality I have to have for myself in order to stay on track.
ReplyDeleteLoved your story! Inspiring. So proud of you sweetheart and you look so beautiful!! Miss you and love you heart and soul. Mom xoxoxox
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